As written behind the box of Begoths doll.


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“Toys That Refuse to Conform!”

I thought I was over and done with buying dolls.  After my mom died in 2013, I started to lessen my trips to thrift stores, was able to curb the urge to buy like I used to.  Yes, every now and then I yield, but unlike before, now I am more discerning.   So, I’m not yet totally…cured! LOL!

Anyway, I stumbled upon a YouTube video of Andrea B. Divisoria shopping and haul! I got curious so I watched her video.  And there, one store they went to, she held up a box of Begoth Doll Fiona Fatale! My pupils suddenly dilated!  Checking the date, she posted it only a week before I saw it, there’s a possibility that the doll is still there, after all, she didn’t buy it.  There’s no info where in 168 Mall it is located, heck, not even a store sign!  So I replayed the video over and over again, took mental note of the area, a few signs, and at the end of her trip a flash of Soler Wing.  The old wing being the Sta. Elena Street.  After 2 weeks I finally decided to go, it was like treasure hunting! 168 Mall is a huge maze and its my first time there.  After scouring the entire toy section, I felt exasperated, I couldn’t find the store! I decided to give up and just went downstairs to window shop at the clothes section.  Lo and behold!  The store with no name!  

Yes, Fiona is still there but I decided to buy Devastatia.  

  So now I have 3 Begoths Doll!

 There were 2 Devastatia, I chose this one even though her box is not in good condition, the doll even has spots on her face which I’m not sure would come off.


But it did came off with one swipe!  The other doll has better packaging condition, but I noticed the color of her head is not the same as her body, its yellowish!  Anyway, I’m contented with my pick.



A Post-Halloween tale.  I know that time of season has passed, but I still want to write about this because I want to.

Oftentimes when I came home from thrifting my mother would ask me what I got and like a child (ha ha ha) I would immediately show her my loot with excitement and a short story to boot of how I got it.  My sister on the other hand will say “Aren’t you afraid these dolls might come alive at night?  You don’t even know where they came from and who owns them…” to which I always say “No, why should I? I adopted them, I’m saving them in a way and giving them TLC, they should be thankful.” 

Well, to be honest there are times it crossed my mind, having watched a lot of horror movies about dolls, I sort of have these feelings.  What if these dolls have inherited negative energies from their previous owner?  What if they are cursed?  What if there’s a soul living inside these dolls?


There was a time when I brought home a doll from a thrift store, I was excited because she’s a 16″ princess doll and looked new.  My mom said she’s beautiful, I’m not quite sure, but I think she raised the dolls arms and tried to scare me by saying “She’s about to strangle you…” and I just laugh it off.  I went upstairs, examine the doll and noticed how odd that her arms seems longer and her hands…, but I dismissed the thought and immediately bathe and spruce her up.  I let her sit on top of my bed.  Days passed, each time I go up, the first thing I noticed about her are her arms and hands, not her angelic face.  I guess my mom’s joke stuck my mind.

Then one Sunday afternoon, the 5 year old daughter of our neighbor came up with me in our bedroom.  She often comes to play with my dolls, so she’s used to seeing different types of them.  But that day, she refused to enter our bedroom, she was slightly whimpering, looking at the doll.  


I convinced her to come in, hiding behind my back, she doesn’t want to come near the doll.  I asked why, she just shook her head and started whimpering again so I took her downstairs worried she might cry.  Then I went up and that started the “feeling” again.  Crazy thought, I asked why, maybe you (doll) are meant to be with someone else, not with me.  So I took the doll to the Church (yes, because I’m crazy) then the Parish Office where there are donation boxes for clothes and toys.  I bid her happy trip!

Then, there’s another one, an antique German Bisque Doll.  She’s still in good condition but quite old.  I got curious and was contemplating on buying her, but hesitated when I saw she has teeth behind the slightly parted lips.  I tried to peep further inside her mouth but it was dark, well who knows, she might even have a tongue!  I took out my camera and tried to take a snap of her, but no matter how I tried several times, adjusting the settings and all, the photos comes out blurred.  I tried using my cellphone, but it wouldn’t focus on her face!  I gave up and said “Ok I knew it now, the signs, you’re not for me.” 

That day I googled her name and indeed she’s an antique doll.  Sorry no picture, I have forgotten her name now, I couldn’t find it in my gallery, I’m sure I didn’t delete it.  




Christmas Doll Gift….from myself!

I haven’t been posting for sometime.  My days since the onset of holidays have been mostly wasted on traffic going home from the office.  Haven’t the time to make an after office stroll in the mall.  Anyway, the much anticipated vacation finally came and I was able to appease my tired weary self by buying a cheap doll.  Well she’s not really that cheap.  I paid Php329.75 so that’s about $7.37, I said cheap because she’s not a regular playline doll that has any distinct brand name like that of Mattel to Barbie, Spinmaster to Liv, etc. that releases new series every time and yet still maintain the character of their dolls.

This one is from Shiner Toys, made in China.  She’s about same size as Barbie’s, and she’s called ZOMBIE PRINCESS!  There were at least 6 types or models I think.  They’re supposedly the Zombie counterpart of the Disney Princess (I think but not indicated in the box) so here are the pics.

I have not deboxed her yet, so I do not know how her body looks like.  I assumed she’s the counterpart of Rapunzel having that type of hairstyle.  I chose this one because the color match ups made her looked collectible and expensive, and violet is my fave color.  The stitches on both sides of her mouth which I found to be simple but cute, the eyes made of synthetic glass plastic.  Next, I shall post her out of the box, plus those other zombie dolls.


I’m back!  And I chose Halloween, one of my favorite time of the year!

Since All Souls Day/Halloween/All Saints Day are always associated with spooky stuff and messages from the grave…I want to share one of my eerie experience that happened about 25 years ago.

Way back then, there’s no internet yet (umm…at least in our place) and the only mode of pastime was either watch TV, play Game & Watch, Tetris etc.  I rarely play those games, I do watch TV at night but don’t stay up late past 9pm.  I sleep with my older sister in one room upstairs while my parents have a space downstairs.  There was this one night where I went to bed early, my sister hasn’t come home yet from work, so I’m alone in the room…

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I lay there half awake…waiting for my sister.  I could hear the slightest and faintest crick…thud…on the floor, our house is a bit old and it’s just normal that floors would shift every now and then, like what they say, old houses makes a lot of noise.


Although my eyes felt drowsy, my mind is still awake, I kept tossing and turning.  I can’t seem to fall asleep without my sister beside me..and God knows I really wanted to sleep because I have work the next day!  I would open and close my eyes every now and then to look around…


And finally when I thought was about to doze off…like I was not awake…but not asleep…a state in between the Alpha and the Theta Level of mind?  Who knows..but I felt weird…then I heard footsteps coming inside the room…


I tossed to the other side and heard the footsteps stopped….I now hear humming…obviously a girl’s voice!  It sounded like just inside the room so, I told myself “finally my sister is home.”  I turn around to look…


Our room was well lighted, but since I am myopic, and I had left my glasses downstairs, my vision during that time was blurred.  I saw a girl standing in front of the mirror with her back turned I could only make out her figure and her black hair.  She was humming a tune while fixing her hair, well, my sister would often sing or hum while doing her chores, so, I knew it’s her and she sounded like her!  I tried to gaze in the mirror to see her reflection, but of course, I don’t have my glasses on and I couldn’t see clearly for it was shaded.


Was already feeling groggy, I could still hear her humming a soft tune…still in the mirror?!  I fell asleep, and this time went deep and soundly.


The next morning, I did not see my sister during breakfast so I asked my mother what time did she went off to work?


She said “What are you saying…she did not come home last night, she had to stay in the office late night to finish her work.”


I was startled to hear what my mother just said and couldn’t believe it!  I just froze and look at my mom while I try to recount what happened last night, I can still remember it.


A girl…fixing her hair in front of the mirror…she was supposed to be….I knew she’s my sister, the voice, the hair, I just couldn’t remember the dress….maybe If I stood up to look or chat briefly with her….then…I would know…


At that moment I felt my head swelled up!  Was it just a dream?  But I am pretty sure it’s not!  I felt weird seeing the figure, but I had assumed it’s my sister so I did not suspect anything…I kept thinking, what could have happened if I called on her?  Would she answer?  will she turn around to face me…….or…….turn around and walk towards…

Honestly speaking, as I write this last part, it still gives me goosebumps!!!  I do not know how I would react had she turned her head around and ……..!!!

A doppelganger??!!  Or something else?


It pays to be patient!  Last year I posted a doll that had me going crazy for a week simply because someone found her first!  I was referring to “THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY.”

A year after that, I happen to passed by a thrift store which I had not visited for a long time.  A sign indicates the “New Arrival” was 3 days ago.  So I thought by that time, all I may see are probably left-over stuff, toys with missing pieces already, and dolls that have been stripped of their clothes by careless customers.  I did went in anyway, to pass time.

I was right, nothing interesting caught my fancy.  Was about to go when I took another look at a tall shelf behind me, I am myopic, so I squinted my eyes as I scan the writings on each boxes.  On the topmost portion of the shelf lays a dark blue box along with the other stuff, I don’t know why I focused my attention on that one, I craned my neck and blink several times, it read Ufuoma Urie.  It sounds familiar to me,  I got excited and asked for assistance because I could’ nt reach it.  My heart was pounding as the clerk handed the box to me, can you believe that!  I think I’m going insane!  At last!  My own LITTLE APPLE DOLL!











Little Apple Dolls doesn’t really have a face (no lips, no cheek blush, lashes and eyes)  all she has is a pair of eyeless hollow socket and a slightly protruding nose.  This doll I found is probably a product of Toy Convention contest, like an on-the-spot face up.  She is in mint condition (still new!) with all accessories intact in their original packaging, except for the dented box.  I don’t like what they did to her face, maybe in time, I shall restore her face to its original state.  But right now, she will have to wait.




The One That Got Away

Been a while since my last post…….I haven’t been going to thrift stores like I used to, but even so, there’s still a lot of dolls that I want to write about, just don’t have that much time.  Anyway, this post is not about a prospective husband or bf that got away, what else could it be?

I was on my way out for a snack when I pass by a thrift store and saw the clerk starting to put up their new arrivals of toys and bags.  From outside I could see their display and got curious on one item in the shelf.  A doll still in her box, about 15″ tall, ghostly white color, long blond hair, faceless…..well almost.  All she had on her face is a pair of “eyeless socket” and slightly shaped nose, she wears a long blue/black robe and I think I saw a mask and an apple inside her box……..I WANT HER!

I asked the clerk if its ok to buy the doll even though they are still closed, she told me to come back later when they open.  So I did at exactly the time she said and hurriedly went inside.  The doll is gone!  I just don’t know how to feel at that moment, I wanted the doll so badly I scanned the whole store, discreetly check each customers who might be carrying the box…..but none of them has her! I stood there for a while until a man stooped beside me to check his stuff, and there she is!  He has her already!  I tapped the box he was holding and ask him that’s a doll?  Almost like I want to demand “that’s my doll!!”

Anyway, since he has not yet paid for her, I asked the clerk if maybe …just maybe…she could sell it to me instead, am willing to add a few bucks just so I can have her…..but of course she said sorry, the man came in first and got the doll first.

I went home empty handed, feeling like I lost in a game……….kept thinking about the doll for a week.  The doll’s name?   Little Apple Dolls.. by artist Ufuoma Urie

The Doll I saw was Sine Of Souls


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(note:  the picture above was taken from google images and is not mine)